I have never taken so long to produce a painting……..but here I am in the middle of a whirlwind of acrylic paint, gorgeous fabrics, gels and mediums and not a clue what to do with it all.   This is actually a little bit dramatic -  I do know how to use all of these materials but am having big issues with composition.  I am entirely stuck with far too many ideas in my head and none of them seem quite right for what I’m trying to achieve.

Since deciding to ‘change direction’  I have battled with each element – right from the layer following my gesso primer to the varnish top coat.  It doesn’t come automatically anymore, which I guess is part of retraining myself and being more engaged in the process of learning again.

My materials are all familiar yet I feel like a inexperienced child whilst I’m handling them.  The flow is different now and each stage is new as I grapple with how things might look with these new shapes I am using.  Gone are the flowing glossy rings of colour – replaced with geometric  shapes representing all things celebratory.  This sounds all very perplexing I know – but there is a vague plan someone in the mix.

I know that once this first piece in my ‘new’ series is complete I will feel elation and possibly a sense of relief that I still ‘have it’.  Fingers crossed that this eventuates anyway.

 K